saturday morning i had to get up to help nina and ben move. we started around 11 a.m. and got done somewhere around 5.30 p.m. or so. although i have to admit that we didn't work the whole time straight but took a break to eat and got some great food that both their moms had prepared in the afternoon and just hung around the new place probably the last hour or so. they have the coolest apartment of the whole clique now. seriously. it's great. i actually just went home for a few hours before we met there again to have a few drinks in between boxes and all. it was cozy, but by midnight we were all really tired and finally went home... and then yesterday i totally SLEPT IN. and by sleeping in i mean i slept 'til after 1 p.m. it was awesome. the weather was crappy so i really didn't miss anything and i obviously needed some sleep because i didn't have that big a problem going back to bed around 1 a.m. last night after not doing much of anything all day. i didn't leave the apartment at all and just changed from pjs into comfy home-clothes in the afternoon. one of those stinky couch days - awesome ;o)

some time around nine my brother called and asked if he could come over. so he came and we had a talk. it sadly looks like there's nothing to be worked out between him and michi any more and their marriage is pretty much over. i understand parts of his side of the story as well as parts of her side. it really sucks though to see them break up. i love them both and this really is what's left family-wise and i never thought something like this would happen.. it hurts. but i know they're both having a much harder time then i do, of course. i know that neither of them has a problem when i spend time with the other one, but i still feel like i'm in between things. of course i'll be talking about it with both of them and i guess i will just have to try and stay out of it when it comes to taking sides or anything like that. i'll have to be neutral about this and hopefully can remain friends with michi, as she's really important to me. still, crap, this is not supposed to happen less than two years after the wedding and with my family. haven't we been thorough enough shit over the last few years. i mean, seriously. c'mon. just give me a break for f*cks sake..

it's monday.. three weeks until my birthday, four weeks until C's birthday/valentine's day. and once more -- apart. life just seriously sucks sometimes..