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2004-12-08 * 1:54 p.m.

endspurt - 3 days to go
okay how do i say this? hmm? how can i express myself and make it clear so you guys know how i feel right now? let me think here for a second. hmm - uh, okay got it. this would perfectly sum it up: I AM STRESSED. dude. really stressed. i know it's me who stresses me but i just can't stop. even my boss told me over the last two days to take it easy and calm down. but i feel like i won't get everything done i need to get done by friday. i see myself sitting here at the office until late at night and coming home to where the chaos lives..

the thing is: there's been so much coming up over the last ten days that my schedule (not that i ever really had one) is totally screwed up. like, my colleagues/bosses realizing NOW that i'm only gonna be here this week and will be gone for four weeks after that. so i hear "uh, right, you're leaving. could you do this/finish that before friday then? i totally forgot..." all day. arrgghhh. also, the problem ist that i have a hard time focussing on a task because my mind kinda goes to "i need to buy this.." and "i have to remember to call.." or "i should really organize that..." all the f*cking time. which doesn't help when you have to write a report about target groups, the position of the company in the market and possible marketing actions.. geeez. i'm gonna be so happy once those reports are done. and there's still a lot more crap on the to-do-til-friday-list.

i.need.to.breath. *takingdeepbreath*

okay, better ;o) so, tonight's the appointment to get my hair cut and highlights. afterwards i'll have a few friends over to chit-chat and have to do laundry while they're there. tomorrow night i'm gonna meet sabine on the weihnachtsmarkt after work. i don't know if she's really gonna come to my place and stay the night like planned. i'm just too stressed out and need the evening/night to pack and stuff. so we might just chat for a bit in the city.. and then on friday i have to pack, buy a few more things, get my eyelashes dyed, take a bubble-bath, shave legs, do finger-/toenails.. - probably more details then you needed to know already ;o) doesn't sound like the friday is long enough for it all but that's exactly the reason i need to get things done here pretty much by tomorrow night so i can leave early on friday. meaning - i need to go. hope you all have a good wednesday ;o)