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2004-11-16 * 4:29 p.m.
go ahead - it's Q & A-time in the madhouse
okay, now, calm down, sit and think about a what you've always wondered and wanted to know about/from me and be nice if you want an answer ;o) just leave 'em in the comments and i'll be back and do my best to answer 'em all.. and once we're done here, i can come back and give you the daily dose of countdown-happiness again. so what do you think? ain't that a great idea? and to answer the first one right away: no, i haven't had a smoke since saturday..
2004-11-17 * 1:29 p.m.
here's the first answers for you ;o)
shaunacat wanted to know:
tell me about one moment in your life when you felt decidedly 'grown up'.
that was probably when i signed the contract for my first apartment. that’s when it came down to me having to pay the bills all by myself and worry about insurance and all the rest of it. even though after i moved back in with my mom in ‘98 when i came back from MN it was more like living with a (n a lot of times annoying.. ;o)) roommate and i paid my part towards the rent and food and all… i have to say that a lot of times i still don’t feel “grown-up” nowadays though…
what was your lowest point, and what did you learn from it?
i have to say that i've really never experienced something i'd call my "lowest point". most of the things i really wanted to accomplish or do i somehow managed to do and i've always been a very positive person. so even very frustrating times are not "saved as" low points in my memory. of course loosing both my parents was tough and having to go through finals just weeks afterwards didn't make it easier. especially the way i lost my mom was and still is horrible. those were the most devastating things ever happening to me and if you'd wanna call those low points then what i've learned from them is to treasure the moment. life is tough, but you have the chance to whine about what's happened to you or make the best of it. and to me whining is wasting precious time, so i try not to do it too often ;o)
what is your nightly ritual before bed?
go to the bedroom and change into pj’s. go to the bathroom, take off make-up and take out contacts (if i haven’t done that earlier), brush teeth and while doing that i walk through the apartment to turn off the heat everywhere, turn off the lights and tv, take the phone into the bedroom, turn on the light on the nightstand and turn off the big light. then i go back to the bathroom, finish brushing teeth, put on lotion, pee, turn off lights and snuggle into bed. there i usually read for a bit, i may call C and before i turn off the light and go to sleep i start a tape. i always listen to a story (TKKG or the like) when i go to sleep. helps me "turn off" my thoughts…
sannie is only interested in:
are we going to see each other in southern cali??????
sorry maus, i don’t think that’ll happen this year. they didn’t cut the christmas bonus completely but about half of it. so if i wanna have a little money while i’m there i won’t be able to buy the roundtrip for C and i. but i really wish i could…
stef would like to know:
what makes you cry?
there are tons of things that make me cry. i’m really sensitive and emotional and i cry all the time about things i see on TV or because i miss C or when i think about that my mom & dad won’t ever see my kids… tons of things…but it's usually just the "teary" kinda crying and i don't break down or anything like that. so don't worry, i'm just emotional ;o)
what makes you laugh?
as much as i cry about crap, i also love to laugh. and one thing that makes me laugh easily are kids. i love children, how they think, how they can get excited about little things, what they say and how innocent everything they do is. what made me laugh again the other day was a story pia told me in duesseldorf: she goes to church with her 2nd graders every thursday morning. last thursday, when they were about to leave the church, she heard how one of the girls put money into the offertory and was wondering why, because the kids usually don’t donate money there, but was distracted right away. a couple minutes later that girl pulled on her sleve, this horrified look on her face because she had just realized what she’d done and told pia: “frau ….. i just gave the money for the hair-dryer to god.” (they had swimming in the afternoon and her mom had apparently given her 20ct to dry her hair). isn’t that just awesome? i love kids and i can’t wait to have my own.
if your apartment was burning down, which items would you take with you?
my pictures/albums. as many as i could carry. pretty much everything else you can replace, even if it’s hard or a p.i.t.a., but pictures are priceless and not replaceable. but seriously, that is one of the worst things that could happen and i don’t even wanna think about it…
2004-11-17 * 6:08 p.m.
Y asked me:
do you believe there is a heaven and a hell?
nope, i don't. i am not christian and i don't believe in what the bible says at all. i think there are powers and phenomenons we don't know about and can't explain or understand. and that's fine with me. we don't have to understand and/or explain everything. i do believe there are a lot of things out there we don't have an impact on - destiny. i believe in such things as "guardian angels" (even though that'd be just a name for one of aforementioned phenomenons) and i believe that there is a place where i'm gonna see my parents again one day. but certainly no such place as heaven or hell where once again even after our time here, people are separated in "good" and "bad" - whatever that means.
all right, thank's for the questions so far. this is actually fun ;o) i'll be outta here for today but back tomorrow - with more answers, if you ask ;o)