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2004-09-28 * 11:17 a.m.

exhausted
i haven't done anything beside worrying about painting, moving and painting for a week now. on top of the "regular" worrying about C. i am exhausted. my whole body hurts from painting, scrubbing, carrying, drilling and running up and down stairs about 17 gazillion times over the last 6 days. i have bruises all over the place not to speak of the lack of sleep because of all the worrying even though i am always so tired by the time i go to bed. i never got up later than 8 a.m. (latest) and never went to bed before midnight (earliest) and i feel like i have been on my feet all day every day since friday. i just started crying after betti said "everything's gonna be okay" this morning. i am so exhausted.. and i have to go back to paint the old place again tonight.

IKEA on saturay was fun again. i just bought the rest of the stuff i need and my account is way beyond limit. it's about time for the new month to come (paycheck!). then i spent the rest of the day carrying stuff upstairs already and packing up downstairs. on sunday we started moving at 10:30 a.m. and the kitchen was set up and the last people left around 7:30 p.m. that's when i started cleaning until 10 or so.. and then last night michi, nina and i painted the old place until after 10 p.m. (torben came and helped for a while, too) and there's still quite a bit to do tonight. and of course i have to scrub the place down after painting and all. did i mention that i haven't gotten anything done in the new place. every morning i go through the boxes with my clothes to find something to wear. now that i think about it - i go through boxes to find just about anything in the new place.. i can't wait to give up the old place for good tomorrow night. just cross your fingers that she doesn't bitch about the painting-job. there's still so much to do at the new place, but that's the fun part so i'm looking forward to it. plus - it's without pressure...

i am worried about C's condition as well. he's had a really bad and painful week and today they're gonna do some more tests to find out if he does actually need surgery. you all know what that would mean.. plus - the doctor mentioned something about workmen's comp maybe not covering the surgery...??? these days i wish more than ever before i was there to be with him. it's just so much right now. i need to be with him so bad.

ps: i never got the table. i had set a time with the woman to pick it up and she called me about an hour before to tell me her husband had sold it without talking to her..