as in knowing how he feels by the tone of his voice, knowing his ritual when he gets out of the shower or ready for bed, knowing what his favorites are as well as his dislikes, his fears and if he likes cats better than dogs or vice versa. knowing if he wants kids and how many and how he'd like to name them, knowing how he needs "his" time and just doesn't wanna talk, that he's a slow typer and doesn't trust the internet. knowing that he's usually cold when he first goes to bed, his favorite underwear and socks, drink and football team. knowing that he needs to be alone, when he's depressed, that he can write the greatest cards if he writes, knowing how it feels like to spoon with him and how his breathing sounds like when he first goes to sleep. knowing how he brushes his teeth or drinks from a can, that he holds the knife with his left hand when he cuts his meat and then uses the same hand to fork the meat and eat it. knowing that he gets jealous easily when he's had something to drink, knowing that in the summer his feet are usually pale from wearing socks and sneakers with shorts. knowing that he doesn't like to wear a shirt without a t-shirt underneath and that he needs lots of pillows to sleep. knowing how he smells and how comfortable it is to sleep on him on the couch and to put my leg over his leg when we're sitting next to each other on the train or anywhere else. knowing how he loves for me to rub his neck while he's driving or how i can put him to sleep by stroking his face. knowing that even if he doesn't say i love you all the time, i still mean the world to him and that being with him is all i need to be happy even if he bugs the sh** out of me. i guess i just love him and i know i've never known and loved anyone like this before..