babe called me twice yesterday morning because he felt lonely. at six and and again at eight when i had to get up anyways. i felt so horrible because he was having a bad day and i couldn't be with him to make it better. but when we talked this morning around two again he sounded better already. this is just tough on both of us and i'm not the one in pain and at a place i don't like.. nina got back from portugal wednesday night so betti & i went over last night to hear about the vacation and chit-chat. she was there with her man for two and a half weeks. they took a VW-bus down there and drove through switzerland, spain and france (i think) sleeping in the bus and spent the last week and a half in portugal. they even got to watch the european-championship's semi-final in lisboa where portugal won. so that must have been an awesome athomsphere. and they had great weather the whole time. nina's actually really tan (and i'm jealous). she flew back on wednesday and ben will be staying there for another week. his parents flew in the day nina left and they will drive the bus back. so he'll take a plane back next wednesday and enjoy the sun for another week (smart decision, dude!) when she told us about the trip yesterday and it all sounded so romantic and just perfect, i had a hard time keeping the tears back. chris and i haven't had a vacation together in four years. i don't count the times i was there as vacation 'cause we had so much to do both times family-wise and it was winter and not all that relaxing. i mean, real vacation. hotel, beach, sun, good books, sunsets, walks on the beach, loads and loads of kuddling and snuggling and ... you know - real vacation. *hugesigh*. but we'll get there. just need to be patient for a little longer. or win the lottery..

i will be off for the weekend now. there's nothing planned but since nina's back we're probably gonna do something tomorrow. and i'm gonna try and call sannie to bug her with all my LDR-frustration ;o) knowing she'll let me whine and understand! i'm gonna go to the city now to exchange my contacts and run a few errands and then get a subway-sandwich for dinner on the way back (hmmm!). maybe a movie? we'll see. if it gets really bad, there's always "friends" to cheer me up.