you know what i realized just a few weeks ago? i haven't had one single nice dream in a loong time. i either sleep like sh.. in the first place and don't dream a thing. or i have dreams that are all about loosing loved ones. like chris having a fatal car accident (that was a while ago and i called him right when i woke up) or a massacre at a hotel where i end up standing in the middle of all my dead and bloody friends. last night i dreamt about me, pia and another woman i didn't know very well, getting into an accident with the bikes and pia got hurt really bad. well, at least she didn't die. so maybe i'm getting better..

no, seriously, it's pretty annoying. i'm sure i only remember a small percentage of the dreams and the ones i don't might be the reason for me sleeping like crap and waking up at least once most nights. the weird thing is just that nothing ever happens to me in those dreams. it's always people that are important to me that get hurt or die. which i think is worse than something bad happening to me. well, i guess you don't have to be an ingeniuos dream expert to figure out what's up with that.

will go now. sweet dreams y'all. seriously!!