... i talked to chris last night and since he really can't say when he'll be able to come he asked me if i would consider coming in the summer. the plant closes for two weeks in the beginning of july and he'd pay for the ticket. one really cool thing is that his dad turns 60 in those two weeks so i'd be there for that. but then on the other hand -- i really don't wanna wait that long to see chris again, plus - july is the most expensive time to fly ...! but if it does look like he won't be able to come before that, i might as well take my summer vacation to go there ... i don't know. that it would mean another 3 months -- god i'm so tired of it! i miss him so much! especially after talking to him when he's in the right mood to talk and we have some time. like last night we talked for over an hour and it was sooo nice ... but then again -- i miss him so much more since then that i almost think those "normal" really short talks that leave me mad and frustrated are almost better because i just feel like kicking his ass and don't miss him all that much. but now ... god -- i really hope none of you guys have to do this long-distance-relationship crap because it just sucks big time!