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howdi, had a bad weekend again. and a long one as well. no party and not much to do at all. it was so bad that on saturday i went all crazy about a cheese-cake-recipe for my mom's cheese-cake. i mean it was THE cheese-cake i would request every time she asked me what kind of cake i wanted (to take to school/work, for my b-day ...) and i just couldn't find the recipe. she probably never wrote it down because she knew it by heart and now i will never be able to taste that cake ever again because nobody knows the recipe ... which is not all that dramatic but after two glasses of red wine on a saturday night by yourself it surely can be pretty dramatic ... and chris was so sweet when i called him all crying about the recipe. he was like "i'm sure my mom has got a recipe for cheese-cake" and me "that's now what i want. i need the recipe for my mom's cheese-cake" and he really didn't know what to do with me ;o) i was really dramatic. but i just have bad days like those and maybe it's okay to cry about a cheese-cake-recipe when this is how i express how much i miss my mother some times ... at least i do cry, i guess ... and i just miss chris so much. it's pathetic - more than 10 months. i don't know how i handle this anyways ... and when i'm having bad days like those i need him to be here even more than i do on regular days anyway! I NEED CHRIS here with me! SOON! NOW!!! oh well - and i just took a test about what's more important to me "LOVE or MONEY" - this is the result: "Hopeless Romantic For richer? For poorer? It doesn't matter to you because you're the Hopeless Romantic. Whether your sweetie is an oil baron or a grease monkey, it's all about until death do us part. Even if you haven't met "the one," you'll judge your soul mate by the love letters, roses, and foot massages — not the size of their bankroll. And even if their wallet is as fat as their sonnet collection, the toughest part of your relationship will be arguing over which charity to choose, who loves whom more, and who's the bigger Schmoopie. And if that diamond ring turns brass, no biggie — your love is totally not-for-profit." i'm soo romantic ;o)
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