what's up what's new? dana's (daniel's girlfriend) 25th birthday was yesterday so we met at daniel's place ... the weekend was okay. we went to play pool and "kicker" on friday and watched a dvd on saturday ("sexy beast" - didn't get it ...).

other than that i'm pretty much just working and trying to handle everything around. i have good times and bad times, my mood is up and down and sometimes i feel like everything that happened the last six months is just catching up with me and kinda running me over ... i have such a hard time right now as it is and not having chris here with me is killing me. there are just so many things happening and the biggest thing besides my birthday ten days from now is my brother's wedding in march. i am excited about it but when i think about THE BIG DAY i'm feaking out. i'm so scared .. i know it'll be so hard without my mom and i almost wish it was over already. on the other hand it's so cool that they get married and i'm really looking forward to celebrate with my brother and michi and everybody ... i just wish it'd have chris here with me to get through it! he says chances aren't very good but it's not impossible ... if i could make one wish right now i would ask for a ticked for him to come and be here with me ...